Blehhhh

So much for my idea of having the story up and posted and writing every day. Then again I haven't even felt comfortable enough about my ramblings to share with my friends yet. And of course real life does have to rear its ugly head occasionally.  Why can't we ever seem to be distracted by *good* things????? grrr I must really restrain the rabid plot bunnies. Things keep changing. I know that's normally a good normal thing to happen in a story, but I want to write this and get it done.  (see the song Breathe by Anna Nalick) I can't write it when my plot keeps changing every few hours.  Maybe I should confine myself to writing the plot ideas in a notebook and sticking to what I already have decided. But of course that's changing too.  Sighs.  I should not even read or listen to music when I am trying to write. It changes my take on Kakashi's and Iruka's characterisations which in turn changes my plot, since of course they would act different if they were different.  Some of my favorite authors are so good they completely change my inner ideas of Kashi and Ruka... I read the stories and they are so f*cking brilliant that I can completely see Kakashi and Iruka behaving that way, even if it was something I previously couldn't see.  sigh.  Maybe I should just write a series of fic recs and a few one-shots and kickstart myself back into this.   It's not like I'm having the most stress I have ever had in life before, but the fact that it's been ongoing without much break is starting to wear on me I suppose.  You'd think with the hubby gone that I could actually get the angst and smut content onto paper quickly... I never get as creative as when he's been gone a few days and this has been damn near 5 months now. Oh well, I need to finish reviewing a brilliant fic and start making a list of my favs to post here.